Meredith: (opening voiceover) Paranoia gives you an edge in the OR. Surgeons play out worst-case scenarios in their heads. You're ready to close, you got the bleeder. You know it but there's that voice in your head asking. What if you didn't? What if the patient dies and you could have prevented it? So you check your work one more time before you close. Paranoia is a surgeon's best friend.
Izzie: I forgot he was dead today. For a few hours in surgery, I forgot I had cancer and I forgot he was dead.
Alex: But, George is dead. And you do have cancer. I want you to keep doing what you love. You're a great doctor, and you have a fantastic future ahead of you. But, you've gotta step up and start taking care of yourself. You've gotta take your meds, you've gotta eat. You've gotta pace yourself, 'cause I can't be your nurse. I can't.
Owen: Rough day.
Derek: Oh, I need some sleep.
Owen: Okay, lets go home.
Cristina: I can't. I just got kicked off of peds. I'm totally screwed.
Owen: Cristina, come on.
Cristina: No, I can't sleep. I can't.
Meredith: I can't leave if she's not leaving.
Lexie: Okay, so I'm there in this spleen repair with Dr. Hunt and he's got the quatery and he's moving it back and forth you know, fixing bleeders. And, then he just hands it to me. Like it's the most normal thing in the world to do. Like I repair spleens all the time. And so, I do it. I repair the spleen on my own. And I just, I realize if we just focus on our jobs, if we focus on our patients, we're gonna be fine.
Steve: Megan got cut. I didn't but she did.
Lexie: What? How?
Steve: The Chief sent out an email. He fired three quarters of our class. We're having a baby.
Alex: What's going on? You paged us.
Meredith: Check your email.
Izzie: For what?
Meredith: HR. If you got cut, you'll have an email. I didn't get one, but I've been calm through this crisis. I have been calm. But, if one of us gets cut I will not be calm!
Cristina: No email.
Alex: I'm fine.
Izzie: I'm good, too.
Meredith: Good. See, I knew it! I knew it! I knew none of us would get cut.
Cristina: Yet. There's gonna be another round.
Derek: Isobel Stevens spent 5 hours on her feet in surgery today. Not because she was ready to go back to work, but because she was scared. She's scared for her job and she was scared to show weakness. You don't have to talk to me, that's fine. But, you need to go out there and talk to your people. They need to hear from you.
Chief: Don't tell me about my people. I've been here for 30 years, Derek. I know my people. I've spent every hour of the last 3 days saving every job that I could, but some tough choices had to be made. HR is sending out an email to the first round of people to be let go.
Chief: Derek, I'm tired. I'm going home.
Meredith: Nice pin.
Cristina: His name's Mr Bear. He eats children.
Meredith: Not having fun in peds?
Cristina: I talked to Callie last night about the residents at Mercy West. She said they don't suck! You're safe 'cause of Derek. Izzie's safe cause of cancer. Alex is Bailey's new favorite. You know, even George would have been spared 'cause he's Owen's guy. Cardio has been a revolving door around here and no ones got my back.
Meredith: So, Arizona is your cover?
Cristina: She's merger proof. She keeps little kids alive. No one likes a dead kid. Plus, they're under anesthesia half the time. How bad can it be?
Meredith: (closing voiceover) We're all susceptible to it, the dread and anxiety of not knowing what's coming. It's pointless in the end, because all the worrying and the making of plans for things that could or could not happen, it only makes things worse. So walk your dog or take a nap. Just whatever you do, stop worrying. Because the only cure for paranoia is to be here, just as you are.