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Grey's Anatomy: She's Killing Me

Upon receiving some unsettling news, Meredith and Derek take preventative steps for their children’s future; a group of Syrian doctors arrive at Grey Sloan Memorial Hospital for a crash course in basic surgical skills that they plan to apply in the field; and April decides to come clean to Matthew regarding the truth about her virginity. Meanwhile, multiple pre-op patients develop infections, causing one doctor to wonder if she is at fault.

Source: ABC

Episode Info

Episode number: 9x20
Airdate: Thursday April 04th, 2013

Director: Nicole Cummins
Writer: Debora Cahn

Alternate Airdates:

UK (sky LIVING) Apr 24, 2013
AU (Seven) May 20, 2013
IE (RTÉ TWO) Jun 04, 2013


Guest Stars
Enid GrahamEnid Graham
As Rachel Dawson (Patient: Car Accident, Wife of Paul Dawson)
Gaius CharlesGaius Charles
As Dr. Shane Ross (Intern)
Jerrika HintonJerrika Hinton
As Dr. Stephanie Edwards (Intern)
Justin BrueningJustin Bruening
As Paramedic Matthew Taylor (Dr. April Kepner's Boyfriend)
Kyle SilversteinKyle Silverstein
As Ethan Dawson (Son of Paul and Rachel Dawson)
Michael BuieMichael Buie
As Paul Dawson (Patient: Car Accident, Husband of Rachel Dawson)
Misha Gonz-CirklMisha Gonz-Cirkl
As Social Worker
Sarah LillySarah Lilly
As Joyce Basche (Patient: Post-Operative Infection)
Tessa FerrerTessa Ferrer
As Dr. Leah Murphy (Intern)
Tina MajorinoTina Majorino
As Dr. Heather Brooks (Intern)
Anthony AziziAnthony Azizi
As Syrian Doctor
Bernard WhiteBernard White
As Dr. Darwich (Doctor From Syria)
Lou RichardsLou Richards
As Steven Basche (Husband of Joyce Basche)

Co-Guest Stars
Alixandree AntoineAlixandree Antoine
As Peds Nurse
Tom CostelloTom Costello
As Seth Lepik (Patient: Post-Operative Infection)
Main Cast
Ellen PompeoEllen Pompeo
As Dr. Meredith Grey
Justin ChambersJustin Chambers
As Dr. Alex Karev
Patrick DempseyPatrick Dempsey
As Dr. Derek Shepherd
Chandra WilsonChandra Wilson
As Dr. Miranda Bailey
James Pickens, Jr.James Pickens, Jr.
As Dr. Richard Webber
Sara RamirezSara Ramirez
As Dr. Calliope "Callie" Torres
Kevin McKiddKevin McKidd
As Dr. Owen Hunt
Jessica CapshawJessica Capshaw
As Dr. Arizona Robbins
Sarah DrewSarah Drew
As Dr. April Kepner
Jesse Williams (2)Jesse Williams (2)
As Dr. Jackson Avery
Sandra OhSandra Oh
As Dr. Cristina Yang


The episode begins and Bailey talking to Meredith about the results of her genome mapping. She eventually tells Meredith that she tested positive for more than one of the genetic markers for Alzheimer's. Ethan's parents are both still unconscious and Hunt is getting worried. He wants Cristina to talk to Dr. Russell about what she should do with Ethan's dad. The doctors are preparing for two Syrian doctors to arrive for a crash course in basic surgical skills. ..

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Episode Notes
Ratings: 8.58 Million Viewers

Trivia: Ellen Pompeo (Dr. Meredith Grey) tweeted that this was her favourite episode from season 9 to film.

ArtistSong TitlePlayed When
Flight FacilitiesClair De Lune Ft. Christine HobergMatthew tells April he wants her to meet his mom.
FoalsMy NumberCristina and Meredith teaching the Syrian doctors.
Jon E. K.Cold WorldOwen tells Ethan about his dad.
The RubensThe Day You Went AwayBailey tells Meredith she has Alzheimer's gene.

Episode Quotes
Meredith: (opening voiceover) Patients say it all the time: "Tell me straight up. I just want to know what's going on. Tell me. I can handle it." We don't dodge your questions 'cause we're mean. We do it because when you say you want the truth you have no idea what you're talking about.

Bailey: What is this?
Leah: I don't know what that is.
Bailey: It is a crumb, and it was stuck to my laptop after you used it to update my notes right next to a splotch of what could either be pizza sauce or blood.
Leah: I think it's pizza.
Bailey: I was hoping it was blood, and you were dying and not just getting pizza all over my computer.

April: (referring to Matthew) You know what? He doesn't make fun of me. He thinks I'm brave. He likes it when I babble.
Cristina: He's a unicorn.
April: He's an amazing guy.
Meredith: Well, then you should tell him the truth.

April: Um, my point is you think you need everything, but you don't. We could get by without a lot of stuff, right?
Matthew: Sure. What exactly are we getting by without?
April: Uh.. My virginity. I was-I was a virgin for a really long time, and then I wasn't. Uh, I really wanted to wait for someone like you for marriage, but I screwed up. And I was just I was so scared to tell you. But then I was watching these guys today, and they-they literally have nothing left, and they're making do. And then I-I just felt like I was being so stupid to-to worry about this one little thing, li-like-like you couldn't even get over it.
Matthew: So, I guess I would be an ungrateful jerk if I worried about your virginity while there's a war going on somewhere and people are dying? That what you're saying to me?
April: No, no. I-I-I didn't--
Matthew: You didn't think I'd be more hung up on the lying? 'Cause I bet even in a war, people still value honesty.

Meredith: We may be losing Leah Murphy from the program.
Cristina: Did I like her?
Meredith: I think you said once that she didn't suck as much as you expected her to suck.
Cristina: Oh. That's too bad.

Owen: Uh, I would like to admit Ethan Dawson to peds for the night.
Arizona: Oh, he'll be fine with social services. Kids go with them every day.
Owen: This kid doesn't have to.
Arizona: Owen, there's protocol for a reason.
Owen: Yeah, but we're human for a reason.
Arizona: I know that you've taken a special interest in this kid--
Owen: Why is everybody acting like this is some kind of a character flaw?

Webber: How about you let me buy you dinner? I want to bend your ear about a project I'm thinking about.
Jackson: You and everyone else are free to submit your proposals in writing to the entire board. And then I will vote like everyone else does. Hell, maybe I'll submit one myself. Maybe I have an idea, but I'm not out here hawking it to people at work. 'Cause I'm gonna write a proposal like you're supposed to.
Webber: Um... son, nobody's ever saying yes to your proposal. You're the most powerful vote on the board. You're the person who says yes to other people's ideas. We still let you be a surgeon. Nobody wanted to take that away from you. But your project is this hospital.

Meredith: (closing voiceover) They say the truth will set you free. What the hell do they know? The truth is horrible, frightening. The truth is more than you can bear. We're supposed to be straight with you, so be careful what you ask for when you walk into a hospital. Because when you find out what's really going on you may never recover.

Cultural References
Episode Title: She's Killing Me

She's Killing Me is the title of a song originally sung by A Rocket to the Moon.

Jerry Maguire: Cristina says to Meredith "You had me at 'lethal injection'." This is a play on the famous line from Jerry Maguire "You had me at hello."

Terminator 3: Rise of the Machines: One of the Syrian doctors says that he took his wife to see Terminator 3 on their first date.

Episode References
Season 9, Episode 19: Ethan Dawson and his parents were patients in the previous episode, 9x19 "Can't Fight This Feeling", after an accident involving a tanker.

Other Episode Crew

CreatorShonda Rhimes
Co-ProducerKarin Gleason  |  Lisa Taylor (1)
CastingLinda Lowy  |  John Brace (1)
Unit Production ManagerJeff Rafner
First Assistant DirectorChris Hayden
Second Assistant DirectorShawn Hanley
MusicDanny Lux
Music SupervisorAlexandra Patsavas
Costume DesignerMimi Melgaard
Set DecoratorNicole Cramer
Production Sound MixerBeau Baker
Story EditorAustin Guzman
Art DirectorBrian Harms
Costume SupervisorTom Houchins
Special Makeup Effects ArtistBari Dreiband-Burman  |  Thomas R. Burman
Department Head Make-upNorman Leavitt (1)
Theme Song Written And Performed ByPsapp
Department Head HairstylistMelanie Smith
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