Meredith: (voiceover) Deep down, everyone wants to believe they can be hardcore. But being hardcore isn’t just about being tough. It’s about acceptance. Sometimes you have to give yourself permission to not be hardcore for once. You don’t have to be tough every minute of every day. It’s okay to let down your guard. In fact there are moments when it’s the best thing you can possibly do as long as you choose your moments wisely.
Meredith: (voiceover) There’s this thing about being a surgeon. Maybe it’s pride or maybe it’s just about being tough. But a true surgeon never admits they need help, unless absolutely necessary. Surgeons don’t need to ask for help because they are tougher than that. Surgeons are cowboys, rough around the edges, hardcore. At least that’s what they want you to think.
Derek: She doesn't let me take care of her. That's not my job anymore. She won't let me.
Cristina: I'm taking care of her.
Meredith: I can't stop, Cristina. I can't stop seeing Derek. It's not about the sex. It's not about the sex, it's about that moment afterward. The world stops, just feels so safe, so safe. I'm not ready to give that up. Does that make me sad, weak, and pathetic?
Cristina: A little bit.
Meredith: What do I do?
Cristina: I don't know.