Speaking with Eamonn Holmes and Ruth Langsford earlier on 'This Morning' about suffering for a decade with an eating disorder, former TOWIE star Harry Derbidge, 20, revealed,
"I've always been a fussy eater from the age of eight. It started for me as being fussy and turned into a bit of OCD with my food, so my poor mum used to bring me out my food and everything would have to be separate. It was an OCD thing, it couldn't be touching, and I'm still such a fussy eater today and everything I eat is completely plain. But at the time I didn't see it as a problem."
"For me, food has never been a priority... I've never been interested. It would be the last thing on my mind. And because she [Mum] just wanted me to be eating, she'd do that for me [separate everything]."
Explaining how difficult family occasions and going to restaurants would be, Harry said,
"I'd always have a bit of a panic when I was going out for a bit of dinner, just because I knew I wouldn't eat anything on the menu. Half the time I would create my own menu... and Christmas dinners, my mum would just bring it out how I like it."
On realising that he had a problem, Harry admitted,
"I used to look at food and if I didn't like the look of it or smell of it or touch of it, I'd always make sure that I'd hide it behind my tongue and forever going to the toilet and spill it all out. That would happen two or three times during a meal."
"It never made me miserable, but I always remember being very, very tired, being very lazy because I had no energy... and I also remember how cold I used to get in the winter because I had no meat on me. I was just skin and bone, so I used to really shiver and shake all the time."
This Morning's Dr Dawn Harper said,
"Listening to Harry's story, I would say that he's not classically anorexic, it was more of a food phobia and a real issue about eating in front of people."
Explaining how bad it got, Harry said,
"My mum would forever be sending me to a doctor because she'd be worried about my weight, and eighteen months ago we went in and I weighed seven and a half stone... and for a boy, that's really really bad. The average should be ten stone or 11."
"They said to me 'if you continue to keep losing weight, we are going to have to send you into a clinic' ...and for me that was the scariest point ever. That's when I knew I had to change. It took a long time, but I literally found what I enjoyed eating. I would eat six meals a day but make them small and still plain, maybe nuts during the day, protein shakes... Right now, I'm at ten stone and I'm more happy in the way I look and how I feel, if I could put on another stone that would be perfect."
Talking about the benefits, Harry explained,
"My energy is ten times better, and I've been diagnosed with an under active thyroid as well so I'm
always a little bit tired... but in myself I'm really good."
On getting his confidence back and wearing *that* thong recently, Harry
"Two years ago, I would never have dreamt of doing that! For me to do that was such a big thing and hearing the response from those pictures - everyone loved them, it went global!"
"[If it helps one person] Great. I want to go into schools to talk about this and turn my negative into a positive... and hopefully work with a charity."
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